numb

poked some holes in a wall to let the sunlight through

felt good

warm

alive

thought that the going would finally be good

but

hey

that’s life

takes you by surprise

trips you up

fell down

face first

found the bricks that i’d laid down

put them back

shut you out

feel my way along the grainy surface

that familiar enclosure

no more sunshine

at least not for now

close my eyes

submit to numbness

the calm

before the crash