Backwards

too much

too fast

my dysfunctional past

i have forgotten

but will i ever forgive?

The Visitor - Part 2

(part one is here)

This time, I’m ready for him.

Open the door even before he raises his hand to knock.

He tips his hat, ever polite,

“Been expecting me?“ he says.

Just a flicker of amusement crosses his face

I silently gesture him in; his drink, already poured, sits at the table.

As he takes his seat he shoots me a cautionary glance; “You seem different.”

“That’s because I am.” I shrug,

“I have realized that I can’t beat you.”

“No matter how fast I run, you will always be there waiting for me at the finish line.”

He says nothing. Merely raises a questioning eyebrow.

I shrug again, resignedly,

“It’s over. You’ve won. I’m done fighting.”

Silence.

I pour my own drink. Raise the glass.

“To you, the victor.” I say mockingly.

He doesn’t move; waits till I gulp down two thirds of my drink.

Finally, leans over, face inches from mine.

I can smell him. He smells of memories.

“Giving up is not how you face reality” He says, softly.

“Accept. Then do what you can to make reality work for you.”

Maybe he doesn’t speak at all, maybe I just hear his voice in my head

He gets up, tosses his drink back, and once again he’s the suave stranger

He nods at me “be seeing you”.

Places his empty glass on the table, walks out the door.

And I? I sit there and wait for my next guest

The one whom they say waits for no man.

Foolproof Breakup Plan #1

in response to the adverse comments of a certain critic (who really should know better) i have decided to add a footnote to this post.

1) dumper sends the dumpee an email which will contain :

• a heads up to him/her of the breakup.
• reason for breakup (if applicable).
• an attachment consisting of an mp3 of godsmack's "i stand alone"*.

2) Upon receipt of the email:

• dumpee reads the email.
• weeps, and goes through other recognized motions of a dramatic display of grief.
• wipes the tears away and notices the attachment.
• proceeds to play the song.
• plays it a second time, this time singing along loudly and unmelodiously
• feels better.
• calls up a mate and goes to the pub for a beer.

can't go wrong. seriously.

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* The song maybe customised according to the music tastes of the dumpee. (but honestly, if he/she doesn't like godsmack why were you dating him/her in the first place i ask. )